REMEMBERING THE PAST
In 2016, I was not yet baptized but I always believed in God. I was a hopeless case when I found out that I was pregnant; wondering if I will ever make it as a single mother. 😓 I was beating myself up about the decision I made. I wasn't ready mentally for this new season of my life. Postpartum took a toll on me in the first few weeks after giving birth in 2017.
I wanted to end my life and even my child’s life. I had to cry out to God for him to heal me as I was mentally broken and overwhelmed. I felt alone and worthless and I kept wondering why me?
However, fast forward to 2020 and I am living my life according to God’s will. Everything is now falling into place. His ways are better than my ways. Motherhood is a part of my purpose. Since the birth of my daughter, there has been a shift in my life. I got baptized in 2018, after I decided that there was nothing left in the world for me to rely on and I knew that God was always with me. 💗
He was there when the suicidal thoughts ran through my mind. He was there when I constantly cried myself to sleep trying to figure it all out.
My daughter is now three years old and she is flourishing. I am doing my best to raise her in the person that God called her to be. She is truly a blessing.
I am stronger knowing that I am a child of God and all my validation comes from Him. I now have a peace that passes all understanding.